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Loneliness, and my great fear of dying far from you,
have made a coward out of me.
Oh how I wanted to weep
when I felt all the mockery of reality
so close by.
My heart begged me
to search for you and to bring it your love—
since my heart asked this of me,
I went searching for you,
believing that you would be my salvation.

And now that I am face to face with you,
we seem to be—don’t you see?—two strangers.
The lesson that I finally learned:
how the years change things!
Anguish of knowing
that faith and dreams are dead…
sorry if you see me tearing up—
my memories have done me wrong!

The sunlight turned pale
as I listened to you speak so frigidly
our love was so different
and it hurts to confirm
that everything, everything has ended.
What a huge mistake to see you again,
only to have my heart torn to pieces!
There are a million ghosts who
mock me with their return:
each hour of those dead yesterdays…